I must admit that I have had some serious blogger block (aka writer's block) the last few weeks so as a big kick in my creative ass I am participating in the Blogging from A to Z Challenge. Do I have to do this? ABSOLUTELY!
My go to word when someone asks me to do something has always been absolutely but I find I use it more when I am unhappy or stressed then any other time. I used it so much when I worked at a mental health and substance abuse agency, the counselor I worked with wanted to get me in to group therapy to deal with my issues.
Issues? Please! I had no issues. Everything was absolutely fine.
I knew I said it too much when my two year old son used it, correctly.
But it was an absolutely stressful time in my life. My job sucked, I missed my friends, I was overwhelmed at home and I was learning to be a mom. My mom had moved into the building we lived in so I could take care of her and for the first time in my life I was sharing a home and not just with my darling, absolutely perfect baby boy but his father, too. Was I stressed? Absolutely! Would I admit it? Absolutely not.
I did let the stress roll over into my performance at work and I was in a constant panic attack at home. The best thing that happened was when I was laid off and I went back to waiting tables. Life finally made sense again and I was able to catch my breath. It was absolutely a good thing.
Eventually, everything else feel into place including my mom moving in to a more appropriate building, got married, got a better job (still there five years later) and moved to a house.
Is everything absolutely perfect now? Absolutely not but at least I don't feel as if I have to be absolutely everything to everybody. Learning to step back and see the big picture is something I am still working on and learning to say no or I need help was a big start to that process.
Do you have a stress tell? Or are you participating in the A - Z Challenge? Feel free to leave a comment!