What Starting Over Looks Like When Trying to Lose Weight

Losing weight is hard!

It's not just the cutting calories, gym time, and gallons of water. It's the feeling of being deprived and for what? A better body? Longer life? Sure, those are great, but at the cost of being miserable after each setback? Will my longer life be a happier life?

Of course, better health is better than the alternative. And, of course, I want to look good in clothes. I just don't want to do it at the expense of my sanity. 

I also don't want to continue to feel bad when I backslide. 

And, boy did I backslide! November and December were terrible! I ate a lot and worked out very little.

15 pounds. I gained 15 pounds in two months. I'm not going to dwell. Today I got my ass to the gym, ate lots of veggies, drank tons of water and will repeat it all tomorrow. More #ontheblog... #365moments #insta365 #fattofit #fattofitcle #bingeeating #weightloss #kettlebellworkout #lunchtimeworkout #busymom #fightingdepression #365omj #365sofab

A photo posted by Mary Johnson (@mryjhnsn) on Jan 3, 2017 at 1:38pm PST

When January hit, I broke out my Fitbit, started recording calories, embraced my YMCA membership, and picked up a bottle of alli, again.

It's been a rough month. But, a good one.

Free printables: The Busy Mom Weight Loss Check List and Measuring Weight Loss Goal Tracker

I'm already down a few pounds and I've increased my gym time.

I even feel stronger. Healthier.

I have a long way to go. I'm not going to rush it.

My new favorite workout are kettlebells!

My routine incorporates these bad boys and the elliptical. I'm already up to 2.5 miles, on a good day.

Did I mention that this is hard? I'm totally up for the challenge! I have the tools I need and the support.

Now, if my want could somehow be channeled to burn fat.