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4.09.2012

Horny, much? - #AtoZChallenge


I am sure you are thinking... Horny, much? Are you kidding me? Maybe you can say: horny never, horny, occasionally or horny, yeah right but horny, much? Ha!

Between work (at home, out of the home or is the home), kids, parents, spouses, volunteering, blogging, laundry, whatever - where is there time to have sex much less feel horny? But, I swear, I am horny all the time now, have been for the last nine months or so.

Am I sharing too much here? Ah, well, let me continue then...

I mentioned this in an earlier post (about erotica, of course), after having kids, my libido was absent. What I failed to mention was that after my first was born and all the stress that went along with being new parents my libido was not just absent but the hunger for sex was gone. I struggled with self-worth issues stemming from relationship issues and my body was no longer my own. I won't say that I did not abstain or for that matter enjoyed the act any less because I did enjoy it but it was not at the same intensity as before having a baby and being in a committed relationship. There were glimpses; obviously number two eventually came along and with her I saw another drop in wanting to screw but something unexpected happen, it came back, with no warning. It was as if a dam broke and the flood of feelings came back to me.

After years of just going with the flow and following my husband's lead all of a sudden it was back - I am horny again! And, when I say horny I mean it is all I think about and I am gawking at people as if they are prey. I follow it up with erotica and then for good measure I make tons of promises to make time and really, really mean it. More often than not there still is not enough time or it is a quicky here and there but this means that I do have a sex drive!

Having had lost it for so long and forgetting what it was like to really and truly be turned on, never mind want to have sex despite having the body of a mom of two, despite nursing a two year old (who co-sleeps) and despite having insomnia - I feel like a whole new woman! What a relief! I am a sexual being with wants and needs of my own.

This feeling is not limited to the sack but also in my day to day life. I started wearing make-up every day and not just foundation but eye liner, mascara and lip gloss, too. I started doing my hair again, not just a bun but I broke out the flat iron. I’m taking yoga and long walks. I’m even flirting again! And, the best bonus to finding my inner sex goddess again you ask? I am being hit on! My men (and some women)! Go figure. I had forgotten what it was like and it feels good.

Horny or not? Have you found your inner sex goddess or has she always been there?

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